Healing: Body Image

I have made some decisions and done some acceptance about my body. I am overweight and there is little I can do about it. I can not walk for exercise nor do many traditional exercises due to arthritis and fibro.

I am gonna get an exerciser that will tone my flabby upper arms because that is something I can do:). I am gonna start dressing more often and stop with the house-dresses. I have a big bosom and I can accentuate it...plus my new hair cut pulls attention up to my eyes and not to my chin area like it did before. I have been dressing down and not doing myself any justice and I had such a warped body image.

I think one thing I was also dealing with is that in my early 20's I weighed 128 pounds till I got pregnant. Then I was pregnant a total of 4 times and packed on the pounds. When I was small I didnt realize how "hot" I was. I somehow felt cheated.

I began looking online at some blogs for other "big" women and checking out how they dress. I do not wish to look like I am 25 nor do I wish to look like I am 75...hehe. I tended to buy my clothes too big...now I'm wearing better-fitting clothes and lovin it.

I feel sexy for the first time in a long, long time. This is a wonderful healing in my life. God has used Jeffrey to facilitate many healings in me that HE knew only Jeffrey could help me with. The 2 men I was with after him verbally abused me and said mean things about me being fat and disgusting; those remarks damaged me. Jeffrey not only accepts me the way I am but thinks I am gorgeous. He never misses a chance to tell me how beautiful I am. His male opinion is the only one I trust. He is very wise in his own way. When I told him about my body issues he said, "We recognize we are not as we were 30 years ago and we move on." That's all it took for a healing to happen.

Life is good cos God is good:).